I feel bad lately I’ve been thinking about my ex and how I just stopped talking to him after he dropped me off at the airport in San Diego last June I kind of just stopped talking to him. I’ve known him for seven years we’ve been playing this on and off game and I love him I just feel like every time I was all the way in the relationship I got hurt. I even did the long distance thing with him after he joined the Navy. This guy dated my sister while he was dating me & he told me “I told you I was dating her too” — I was really confused
and then when we were on one of our off moments he got some chic pregnant, we got over that. Then I went to go visit him in San Diego for about two weeks. I flew across the country by myself to see if I wanted this to work. I found myself sitting at his house all day while he was at work (he’s in the Navy) and his best friend (who’s a guy) would take me out sometime so I wouldn’t get bored. & it’s crazy because I really wanted me and him to work. Then one night I happen to log on to his computer after my laptop crashed and his Facebook was up. I’m all up for an open line of communication and I felt like he was hiding something. Turns out the guy was still married to his baby’s mom (he said he married her for the money that you get in the Navy for being married). Not only that but he was talking about moving in with her in his Facebook messages. I felt like I was intruding and I was the other girl so I shut down. To avoid confrontation I always shut down that’s just the way I am.
Do I owe this guy an explanation? We were like the best of friends and this is the longest I’ve ever gone without talking to him? Or do I continue to pretend like we never existed? I shouldn’t feel bad should I? I guess first love is always the hardest. I’ve never been in another relationship.