& Tug of War

What we’re not gonna do is play tug of war with our love. Either you love me or you don’t. Don’t get my hopes up if you’re not going to hold me. Don’t pull me close just to push me away because I’ve been there. And that’s not fair. As long as you try and…

& 30 Word Story 

Somehow I left my heart in Greece, even though I’ve never been there.  I lie to myself and him every time I utter those two semi-permanent words “It’s over.”

& Romy & Michele

I don’t have a memory of first meeting her. We just did. Her mom and my mom were best friends and 3 month ol’ me was in the waiting room when she was born. That’s our joke.  We got into trouble together and were each other’s alibis when we interrogated for it. We’ve had silly…

& Forevers

Speak now or forever hold your peace If I’m in, I’m all in Now a days I only invest my time in forevers I no longer believe in right now mentality I shouldn’t believe in forevers either but Even after who I thought was my forever took me and broke me I put myself back…

& 25 Years

“Your 20s are your screw up years. No one has it together yet…” –everyone It took 25 years for me to not care what people think of me. I wish I would’ve know it was so peaceful. I love who I’ve become and I know it took a while to get here. It took a…

& Metaphorically Speaking

He loved me like someone repeatably stabbing me in the heart and then kissing me like everything would be okay. I’d cry sometimes, and like a junkie I’d come back screaming, “I can fix this.” As an optimist, I sure don’t know when to give up. Love is the strongest narcotic and the only rehab…

Yesterday’s Poem

It’s been two years, three months and five days since our last breakup. We were for real this time. This time there wasn’t any “I’m sorry” or “We’ll do better next go around.” We just gave up. We gave up on the daily texts and the hourly how was your day recaps. What we had…

& Unwritten

I thought about calling but I knew your wouldn’t answer. I keep you in prayers before I fall asleep. I still think about you dream about you as if we still speak. It weird because even when I don’t like you I love you. I’ll never be able to give my everything to someone the…

& Texts From Last Night

Texts from Last Night I love you. I miss you but I don’t want you back. Not being friends is hard. Maybe we could work if we tried again.  Maybe we unraveled again because we had too many loose threads. Too many secrets, too many people, not enough of “I’ll try.” “I’ll trust you. We’ll…

& The End

–         The Problem is I was in a relationshipwith who I wanted you to be…. I wantedmore than you could give… Your just enough wasn’t sufficient enough for my heart. I keptthinking maybe it will change, let down my guard, invited you in But still I wanted more… Empty you had nothing else to give with…